About Me

[escher hand ball] Welcome to the personal part of my website. Here you will find out all about me, my past and current adventures.

I suppose one of the interesting aspects of my life is that my life is not boring. All too often it is high drama. Be it dealing with the closet or living on the streets homeless for 8 months. Be it God, the fates or the Cosmic Muffin, it seems to want me to have a life of major highs and lows. But I have come to accept that adage that one is only given just enough that they can handle it, even if they do not believe it.

Briefly, I am a 49 gay man who does not look or act in his late forties. For many people, I think I am in late 30's. Until recently, I was a researcher and developer in the computer field but because of circumstances, I haven't worked in the field for the past few years. And, right now, I am wondering if I ever want to re-enter the field as I get my life back together.

This part of my website is self-indulgent and for those who want to know more about what makes me tick. As you can see from the side navigation bar, there are a few phases I have gone through to be the person I am right now. But I want to start with a major caveat: what you read is my side of the story. There are some people who will be presented in a good light and they have their side of the story. So take what ever I present with a grain of salt. There are always at least three sides to one person's story.

Even though most of my adult life have been seeped in the computer world, I am not just a computer geek. I am also a writer. Even as a kid, I had a fertile imagination and read a lot but never saw my ideas translating into stories. I made some forays into writing in the 1970's but the bug took hold in 1980's.

Because of my science and engineering background, I generally wrote science fiction. But I had a finger in fantasy because of my being in the DM of a Dungeon and Dragons group. Yet the all that I wrote that was fantasy was anchored within the D&D realm. It wasn't until the mid 1990's that the world I had created for my players started to evolve into something original.

As you will see in this section, computers was my passion which slowly burnt out. But writing never stopped. In my darkest days, my writing provided an anchor and a lifeline. In the depths of winter 2002-2003, living on the streets, what kept me from losing hope was the days I spent at McGill, in the library, doing research for my ever growing series Tangled Threads.

And it was during the dark days of Jan-Mar 2003 that I was able to finally bring a focus to the series and have a direction. At the same time I saw part of the world that many never see. The rejected, the ignored, the hopeless. Dismissed by the government and by their fellow man. I met people who had just given up. Or people who were mentally ill yet were not getting any proper medical treatment, doomed by a society who does not give a shit. And then there were the parasites who preyed on the homeless, especially on the days when they got their welfare checks. Leeches that peddled drugs and booze to help numb the pain and anguish they were feeling.

That experience galvanized certain things in me. Some of the people I have met will get a voice here and in Tangled Threads. As I reconstruct my life, I am trying to organize my work time so I can spend more time writing. But also be a voice for those on the street. And who knows, maybe I will be able to get some sort of grant to get the first two volumes of the series published and some of my essays that I am writing about the 8 months I was on the street. I have no idea where my life is going but I know it will be interesting. And this section will give a sliver of the different adventures I have experienced. All I know is it won't be boring!